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Jul 16, 2018 (06:22 PM) Reply | Quote 


       
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Hi StellaBlue,
  "I do not like wanting to smoke.  I realize the only way to stop the wanting is to stop the smoking that creates the want in the first place." You pretty much summed it all up with those two sentences. It really does sound like you have a good grip on your quit journey this time. You seem to be handling the unexpected stress and sleepless days/nights in stride now. Not that you don't have an urge to smoke anymore, but knowing that you can survive the situations without that nasty habit.  Keep it going, almost a WHOLE month already. 
  So your sense of smell has returned to you too? Hard to believe that you used to smell like your partner and his apartment and never really noticed it.  My wife still smokes too, but she goes outside to do it. I can tell whenever she's around.  I know where you're coming from. 
Stay strong, and watch those triggers.
 
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Jul 16, 2018 (09:14 AM) Reply | Quote 


       
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Day 26, and boy did I earn the last few days!  Last week I acted as birthing partner (for a friend), an event that ended up lasting four days, largely without any sleep and with plenty of stress and bad feelings. This weekend I wanted to smoke quite badly a few times, but I asked myself if I would rather say "I've gone X days without smoking," or "I've gone X days without smoking.... except for that half smoke/2 smokes/whatever on Day 25." I decided the former was much nicer sounding, plus I think I'm finally learning that "half a smoke" is always the harbinger of full relapse for me.  It's definitely tough, but not impossible, to say no (even if I am operating on fumes and fury).  Sometime during the birth ordeal I also cut my Champix down (was taking a half pill twice a day, now I'm only taking a half pill - a quarter dose - per day).  This was accidental, I wasn't planning to taper until this coming week, but might as well go with it.  I do not like wanting to smoke.  I realize the only way to stop the wanting is to stop the smoking that creates the want in the first place.  Like any good addict, I want this accomplished immediately 
 
P.S - My partner, and his apartment, now stink to me :( 

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Jul 10, 2018 (07:54 PM) Reply | Quote 


       
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Hi StellaBlue,
 Sounds like you are gaining more confidence in yourself on your quit journey every day. Good for you!!! Three weeks tomorrow, then a month, two months, and before you know it, it will be your 6 month anniversary. Time is going to seem to go quicker  for you now too since you're not spending so much time thinking about not smoking. It only gets better from here on. Just make sure to watch out for the triggers, and no matter what situations arise in the future, NEVER give in to the thought of having "just one". You are back in control of your life now again, not that darned NicoDemon. Congratulations on being a quitter for (3) weeks now.  Be sure and reward yourself for all your effort, you deserve it. 
Stay strong.
 
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A miracle!  I just reread my post from yesterday, and realized that it didn't even occur to me to smoke after my work thing yesterday.  I spent exactly zero minutes thinking of cigarettes.  I had one thought late at night after a personally draining/stressful evening, but it was a thought, not a crave, and therefore easily dismissed.  It's working!  I am moving closer to a life where I don't think about smoking or miss smoking.  My dream goal is to simply never think about smoking. I'm so tired of having to add in those extra thoughts, I'd rather use my brain space for something more productive than wanting/plotting a smoke.  I am feeling very optimistic, as I'm still in very early quit days and yet am feeling the freedom from being chained to that particular thought loop. Tomorrow will be 3 weeks.  I sailed right by my record from last year.  It's happening.  I'm quitting.  I've quit.  I just have to keep on doing nothing and the rest will take care of itself :)

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Day 19, and I'm happy to report that the weekend was the easiest I've had yet.  Almost no thoughts of smoking at all. I went through the days feeling like a nonsmoker (as in, someone who never thinks about cigarettes) instead of like a smoker-trying-to-quit.  It was great.  I noticed one or two reflexive cues to smoke (one was with a certain person, the other was with a certain situation), but was able to just observe it, laugh, and let it go.  I have a high-trigger work situation this afternoon (meeting with a draining client, to do a task I don't want to do, tripled with a long drive back afterward.... this is a perfect storm for me, and a time when I really want the relief and "reward" of a smoke afterward).  I'm grateful to know I do not HAVE to smoke over this, but I am on guard against the reflexive desire to smoke returning. It'll be fleeting though, and nothing a little solo belting out tunes on the way home can't cure.

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Jul 06, 2018 (09:35 AM) Reply | Quote 


       
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Feels good doesn't it?  Made it through hell week and heck week, keep it going. Onto blah week.
Stay strong.
 
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Jul 05, 2018 (03:23 PM) Reply | Quote 


       
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Day 15. I feel like I haven't smoked in forever. ha.

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Jul 04, 2018 (02:27 PM) Reply | Quote 


       
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I use Chrome as well.  If I am in a thread, I can click on the back pages of it no problem, but if I am in the title pages I can't see get past the first page.  I got a few extras by changing my settings to "view 50 posts at a time," so that'll keep me busy for now :)

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Jul 04, 2018 (02:13 PM) Reply | Quote 


       
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It's working for me. If I click on the number 8 page in this forum it brings up some messages from 2014. Maybe you need to refresh your browser? I'm using Chrome, what do you use?
 
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Can someone let me know how I can access the archives of this board?  I can only see the first page of each sub-forum. When I click on the numbered pages, it just reloads the front page.

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2 weeks :)  I feel like I spend most of my time not thinking about smoking, which is nice. I look forward to the day when I no longer identify with smoking.  Or when my sense of self and identity is no longer tied to being a smoker.  Someone approached me last night and said, "I heard you quit smoking again." That actually felt good, as well as being a jolt of accountability out of the blue. One more person supporting the effort.  Or one more person I don't want to admit failure to.
 
And I noticed I typed "pubic" instead of "public" in my last post. The universe conspires to keep me humble one day at a time :)

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Jul 03, 2018 (09:41 AM) Reply | Quote 


       
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Hi StellaBlue,
 Almost through heck week, keep it going! You can enable your smoking meter by going into the "my program" and click on the settings. Then use the drop down box to enable the meter after you fill out the fields.  
Never "bum" one. There's no such thing as "just one". That's the easiest trap to fall into and blow your quit journey. Soon the "I think I can" is going to turn into "I KNOW I can", and the urges will become distant memories. Just keep taking it one day at a time, and those days will add up quickly on your meter.  
Stay strong.
 
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Made it through the long weekend, I think today is Day 13. Almost two weeks without a cigarette, I haven't accomplished that since last year... I still feel like a smoker-trying-not-to-smoke rather than a nonsmoker.  At this point my quit is quite pubic within my social sphere, which is helping.  I don't want to hurt my pride by bumming a smoke from someone. I think my cravings are both physical and mental - I experience strong cravings right about now in the morning (which remind me to take my little half pill of Champix), and then any cravings are more emotional in nature after that.

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Jun 29, 2018 (06:02 PM) Reply | Quote 


       
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Hi StellaBlue,
 Keep fighting those urges, you are stronger than they are. Like you said, take it one day at a time. Each day that passes you gain more control of your life instead of those darn cigarettes controlling it. Pretty soon those urges will start to fade away, and then they will become few and far between. That's way down the road though. Don't think about the long term right now, concentrate on today. 
 Nine days is a great start on your quit journey. Are you rewarding yourself yet?
  That urge to smoke you're talking about, is that a physical urge or a mental urge? Keep changing your routine and don't give in, you can do this.   
Stay strong and hang in there.
 
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Day 9. The urge to smoke is returning.  I am getting through each urge by just telling myself "not now" and then distracting myself with another activity. Thinking of my entire future without cigarettes is too difficult, but I can handle not smoking *today*. 

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